i am here, you are there, wish you were here, wish you were smiling, happy; wish you were the sun i always dream of, in fact you actually really are; wishing so many things is sometimes hard. i am shaking, shaking to find the way to show i am here. i’ll find it somehow. i am here, you are there, why can’t we all be anywhere. i am sorry for each of the moments i felt bad and gave you my sadness. wish i was strong enough to make myself not say the things i have said when i was feeling bad. never wanted to make you feel bad, never wanted to hurt you but managed to do it so well just because i was dumb. i am sorry i was dumb. never wanted to run away but i had found myself the track on which to run… only when i had won, and the track ended did i realize how bitter the win was. it was not the one i was looking for. now seeking for the one i know i want to be on i wonder if it is it to late but i don’t even care cause i would not forgive myself if i were to not even try finding the good track whatever happens i’m here. just whisper, shout scream talk, think i am here and you are just there… after all, we are so close and so far in the exact same time and i should better find a rhyme cause it would be nice if this was to sound boring but most importantly i hope it does mean something. you drew the butterfly, and i cried inside myself while whispering in your year. you half-smiled: half a smile that could mean so much or so little, nobody could know now; half a smile that can make me the happiest person in this whole fucked up world, half a smile that can make me cry. you’re the only person i’d ever want to care for.
Posted on January 15th, 2008 by EveryDay
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I wonder what is in fact here, or there cause I had often felt that space does not exist, time, as well ; here or there, it’s important to find the place where we are and where we would like to be, I always thought I can turn there into here, I always thought I can transform the world only with one thought. Maybe I’m naïve, but just maybe I can make the world smile and after that I can drink my coffee silently, I do not need any other sound then the sound of a coffee that moists my lips with sweetness and my soul with smile, I want the inner smile.
Let’s forget for a moment that there is a past, as someone said, let’s only remember the memories that helps us live at the present moment, let’s discover ourselves as a child discovers the joy of playing, he sees the whole world like a playground and he uses everything as toys that’s why he’s so protective with everything around him, when he brokes one of his toys, he’s sorry and then tries to be a better child, he tries to protect all the other toys in order not to be broken, we are children, the world is a playground, our feelings are often toys and that’s why we should protect them.
When I draw, I sometimes feel like a child, I just draw the world in my eyes and then I just need to protect the drawing cause it becomes a part of me, I had spread myself in the world and now I am trying to find myself, it’s a treasure hunt and I have heard coffee is the prize, coffee and smile, coffee with smile.
Gone to find the treasure.
Butterflies
langa “butterflies” era o inima, nu un emoticon, inima mea nu e un emoticon.
Superbly written…